Stefanie Montoya
Hi guys. It’s been 9 or so months since Joey died. We live in West Virginia now. Let me tell you guys, I freakin hate this stupid place. I can’t make more than $12 here because the minimum wage is so damn low. I worked at a “supermarket” called Grants for about 7 months. Learned a lot about produce. A lot that I wish I didn’t know. Ruined fruit for me forever. Frozen fruit for me from now on!
Anyway, the day after tomorrow I’m going back to Roanoke, by myself, to go back to tractor for more than I was making when I left! You know, this will be the first time in my life I’ve ever done anything by myself. I’ve never been without Joey or one of the kids… I’m terrified! It’s really weird not having to explain my every move, not having to answer to anyone, work as much as I need to without the 21 questions. But, I’m scared, much more than I’m willing to admit. Even to myself. I have to keep telling myself that this is my life now. Deal with it. No one is gonna be here for me, no one to help me… I’ve learned who is here for me and who is not.
I love you guys. I miss you so much



